Tammy

So the 1 year anniversary of Tammy's death has come and gone. August 28, 2007. I didn't realize how much it was still going to affect me. I just can't pinpoint HOW it is affecting me. Do I miss her? Why would I. She was not part of my current life. She had written us off as part of her family a very long time ago. My life goes on every day and it is not like there is a chunk of it gone now. So I guess I can't say that I miss her. Am I angry? Yes, I think I am angry. I am angry that she did this knowing full well how it would affect my mom. Knowing that my mom would carry this on her shoulders for the rest of her life. I am angry that she saw this as the only way. She made a point to make us feel like we were a horrible family and the source of all her problems. In the end, was that true? Was her new family so much better? If so, why did it come to this? Was it that she realized in the end that we weren't so bad but she couldn't excape where she was? Or couldn't swallow her pride and just call mom and say she was sorry. Or not say sorry, just call. Hmmm..... Am I sad? Yes I am sad. Sad for many reasons. And I think I will carry this sadness for a long time.

Summer 2008

So here we are nearing the end of summer, already. Wow. So where did the summer go?? Crazy. Time is just flying by, and I feel like I'm missing everything. So what did we actually do this summer? Well, we took Miles and Grace camping back in July. That was a lot of fun, I really enjoyed it. Miles had a blast! Just the idea that he was outside and could get really dirty, I think that really appealed to him! I will have to check to see if I even have any pictures from that trip..... Don't think so. You see, I was in charge of the camera, which I brought, didn't quite remember the batteries though....OOps! And of course the big Santa's Village trip! Grandma Claire treated Miles and Grace to a trip to Santa's village! We had a great time. Of course it rained a little every single day. It was fine though, the kids had a lot of fun. I think just being in the hotel was exciting for them! Santa's village itself was pretty cool. Obviously it is geared to younger children so Miles was able to do every thing that Grace did. Except the roller coaster that is, but Grace had no interest in that anyways! And yes, it rained on us while we were there. And there is me, typical tourist. Now it rained everyday for like a month, all the weather reports called for rain that day, so you would think I would prepare for rain right? Wrong! Here we are at Santa's village, enjoying the day, and of course it starts to rain. And what happens when it rains? The clouds cover the sun, you get wet, and of course you get cold. So all these families with their little ones all seem to be prepared for the rain. We're talking rain coats and boots, warm sweaters, pants, everything. And here are we, shorts and t-shirts. Didn't think about sweaters or jackets, or umbrellas, nothing. So of course it starts to feel pretty chilly and I'm thinking great, we're going to have to cut this short because we are going to freeze to death. But it all worked out in the end. The rain stopped, the sun came back out, and the kids had a great time!! And now it is the end of August, summer is just about over. Wow, where did it go?

Giving it a whirl!!

Well it seems to me everyone is getting on board with having a blog......
Seems to be the thing to do. So, here I am, going to give it a whirl.
Really, I don't have a lot to say. Things in my life are trucking along, slowly.
Not a lot going on to talk about. At least not anything that you all would want to
read about. But hey, maybe there is something to this whole blog thing??
Maybe if I viewed it as a journal of Miles and Graces life........ maybe then I could
fill the page with some interesting stuff, and probably some really cute pics??? Something
they could come back and read when they are older. And laugh about......
I could talk a lot about Renee and Michelle but they are both at an age where
I'm not so sure they would want me sharing personal details about their lives
with all of my friends. Hmmmmmmmmmm
Give me some time and we will see where we end up!!!!